what it feels like to be a ghost.

so.. that's it?
you're bailing out on me?
great.
i want to continue. i want it more than anything else. more than anything else i could've ever imagined. i will give up everything and anything for it. i dont care if i cant learn any new languages. for this i live for, is a kind of language by itself. and my finals are approaching. to be exact, less than a day. i cant get anything in.
i will give up going out, clubbing, dancing, whatever. i just want to continue. why wont you let me prove it to you? or give me a chance to? do you care?
if you did, then why, during socials you'd brag to people about how graceful i stand on my stage... and then continue to contradict yourself by telling me how useless it is and it wont get me far. what do you know. if you never approved it in the first place, why then did you lead me on.

you know what? thanks a whole bunch (: i appreciate it.
and the ghost carousel goes on. when will it stop.