and romeo falls

I wonder just how much longer can this facade go on...
how much bottomless esophagus thinning liquids will one be able to pummel down...
this maelstrom i was thrown in, never forgiving and relentless.
Thrashing about in it's many forms, claiming much of mental physique to derive one as no more than a mere child.

and to my dearest sisters, joy whose name is the most pure, but nevertheless yet to show with your abhorrence of the old and welcoming of the new. To what extent i know is white, i do not know. But i do know that they are not lies. Maybe slight deviations from what was intended, but maybe wrongly intepreted or such.
But it is strongly justified when the only chance you get to talk to me, you do not ask about my well being but just material things.

I am overwhelmed with anguish and still also welcoming many other emotions not known for words by the many various things happening around me and of such that leads me to such a dry and thirsty driven fatique.

When one is no longer important, how can one survive? To go on for? That, i have yet to understand and comprehend in a certain individual. Receive me, let me in and bestow this knowledge upon me.

Besides this rant, i have tons and tons of pictures to put up, the new house, shopping trips, fogo de chao, things like pi day and the numerous pictures i took with some of the friends i've made within these 2 months or so. But well, it all pales in comparison when i need to find that butt cross.

I will update soon with proper pictures i guess, when i have the time and mood.